Maybe a light at the end of the tunnel?

According to our court-appointed doctor, he is doing very badly psychologically and his doctor expects him to try suicide again once he is out. I can only say, he has no purpose in life, his life is an absolute shambles, he has no gumption or will power, so he might as well go ahead and do it. And this time do it right so I dont have to worry about the safety of my kids and myself.

I feel badly when I picture our early marriage but then I remind myself that was a LONG time ago and he stopped caring about me more than a decade earlier. I think of all the opportunities he had to make a REAL marriage and be a good dad and how he so carelessly abused the ties of family and marriage that make our culture work.

His lawyer is very hot to settle it all. My lawyer thinks he is afraid something even worse will happen. So we put together a proposal and my attorney and I went over it together last week. Nothing exciting. To even assets to 50:50 each, he has to transfer around 81,000 to me. And he owes me a little over 10,000 in interest on child support (tho my attorney thought it would be twice that). The house will be ALL mine. I look forward to that in particular. And he is to put money aside for our oldest's college and anything not used will be held for the younger two. And he owes me some money for things I payed for him.

We'll see where it goes from here. He is still in the hospital.

My lawyer thinks, if they dont take too long to respond, we can be done by mid-May.

Hooray!

W-A-I-T

Well, I said to give him back his car but looks like he got a little creative. At the end of last month, he stepped in front of a semi-truck and was smashed.

Dont despair, dear reader! He is still among the living. He broke his back and his pelvis and was in critical condition for a while. But he is back on a normal hospital room and supposedly recovering.

I dont know how he manages to survive these things. He must have something on earth still to accomplish.

I think we can safely say he will no longer be troubling us. He hasnt the gumption or discipline to recover from this accident. My son thought it might be a sobering incident that will change his attitude but we both highly doubt it. With surgery to fuse two of his vertabrae and who knows what else, he is not going to be popping up at the library anymore.

I am sorry to see him suffer but not sorry for him.

His lawyer started a big push for a settlement right after this happened. I'm not sure why. My brother thought the prognosis may not be too good so he is anxious to get in as much billing as possible. I decided to slow it down. Now that I know he wont be bothering us, I am going to focus on school and we are going to be back in touch with them come June. The trial is in August so we will have plenty of time plus we can see what will happen. If he dies, I'd like to get the assets but am afraid his prodigious debt would follow. I have a call in to my lawyer about that.