Snowed in!

Outside and in my head. I have been obsessing that my former SO will go to court next week and try to get back into the house by claiming he can live in the addition. Or that somehow he will fool the judge into thinking none of the complaints in the paper were true. I cannot let the thought go. I have now so riled myself up that my left arm and leg are numb. This happens to me for the past year when under super stress. I was having a meltdown yesterday that my mom tried to bring me out of. Her first response horrified me as it dealt with the worst case scenario - that he gets to stay in the addition. I cant even comprehend surviving or my kids surviving it from a stress point of view.

In the meantime, I'm trying to concentrate on my math. I had to drop my one class but have two remaining. I took a test yesterday - I havent the vaguest idea if I've done so poorly that I'll have to drop or if I have a chance of recovering my grade. I have another test Thursday but I think I'll do well on that. That particular subject plays to my strengths.

I did get to run yesterday at school. It must have helped but not much. I have got to pull myself together for my kids' sakes. I can see my middle one reacting intensely to everything I come up with when talking to my mom about scenarios. So now I have to talk when she is not around.