to go!
I rec'd an email from our minister yesterday. She said FSO had come by the church the week before - probably the same day he stopped by the lawyer. Apparently his landlord is driving him around. At that point, she realized how very sick he is. And he called her on the phone yesterday and she had to hang up on him due to the ranting. She also forwarded some emails members of the church rec'd last week.
I forward these to my lawyer and I'm going to drop off copies of them with the doctor on Monday. In these, he envisions spending regular time with the girls. Eeek!
From: FSO
Date: 11/16/07 22:15:56
To: A group of friends who must be shocked and some family who must be sad
Subject: Why I love the ones I love
These are the people I love the most, without whom I would not have survived the hell I have been thru (Mental Hospitals, Jail, Homeless shelters, sleeping on the streets of the city ).
1. My Lord and Shepard – Jesus Christ
I was born a Shiite Muslim and because a mullah (stupid idea of my mom) slapped me for questioning the rationale of muttering something to God I did not understand, I lost all interest in God and religion. Fame and $$ made me arrogant to the point that my faith in God was almost non existent. 10 months ago, God decided to take everything from me – My wife, Kids, $$ and has not let me see my love (***) for over 6 months. On top of that close friends and family have abandoned me. I have lost my job after 12.5 years. All this has happened to a man who had the world by the balls (Google me - I am in Business Week, Fast Company and half a dozen Leadership text books).
Something very strange happened 6 months ago in Jail. I had just gotten up, when I had this vision – A man walks up to me with a gun and holds it up to my head and says “ Buster – u have 3 seconds to decide ON YOUR GOD OF CHOICE before I blow your brains out”. Without hesitation I said Jesus Christ. At first I thought it was my predisposition due to my catholic school upbringing, but since this vision I have been saved by him from the jaws of death at least 6 times, I have to believe that this was more than that. Next Sunday I get baptized in a tank in a nearby black church in *** **** . That will be a public recognition of the immortal I am supposed to love the most. Note the word supposed.
2. SOME POOR WOMAN – The Woman I love with every cell in my body.
One look at the smiling face of *** took care of my depression of 34 years. I met her at the *** Red Roof Inn. She was the front desk manager. She listened to my stories for 3 hours flat and I fell madly in love with her. Ours is a platonic relationship so far, but I have always wanted SPW as my wife and mother of my children. This is all too fast for SPW who has not spent more than 8 hours with me and not seen me for 6 months. No matter whether we stay just friends or become lovers or husband and wife only time will tell and whatever happens will be the will of God. All I can say is that I will never be able to repay this woman for what she has done for my soul. Also I have never seen a woman of such integrity in days when we simply start our relationships by jumping in bed . IT’S VERY HARD FOR ME AS A MORTAL NOT TO PUT SPW 1st, but every time I do it I get slapped on my hand by JC. Perhaps that is why he has kept me away from SPW physically for so long. I strongly believe that JC had something to do with my meeting SPW. The RRI where I stayed was only within a 10 mile radius of my sister, brother and Aunt. If they had given me shelter in their homes, I would never have met her..
3. FVV – My Landlord, who took me in without references - nothing. He saw a man in deep pain and did what Christ wants us all to do – HELP THY NEIGHBOR LIKE U WANT TO HELPED YOURSELF. Bill is very spiritual and he is a TRUE CHRISTIAN even though he never goes to church. FVV is a Vietnam Vet who has fallen on hard times and again the Lord has brought us together because he wants me to focus all my energies on improving the lot of veterans and men and women in uniform. THAT WILL BE MY FOCUS AS I RUN FOR CONGRESS FROM THE 14th Congressional District of Illinois (Dennis Hastert’s vacant seat). I have no $, just ideas and lots of Passion. We will see what The American people REALLY want at the end of the day.
4. My Adopted Country – The United States .
I think our country is **really**
5. Strangers/Friends ( I know I will miss someone here and that’s the danger of listing people)
a. My Brother **** in Jail. He treated me a million times better than my own brother.
b. My sisters - **** – Correction Officer at County Jail in city
- WOMAN FROM LETTER – SPW’s best friend who gave me invaluable insights into what I was doing wrong in my relationship. I miss her advice. I wish there was a way to communicate with her.
- *** – From my church . Another fine woman with a big heart.
c. My Friend in LA who works for ----. *** – Cant find his email now. He has faith me more than a mustard seed. I owe him $300.
d. My Lawyer – *** who has never passed judgment on me and helped bail me out of jail when no one else would. Lawyers are scum but NOT ***. If u want an honest man, look up ***
e. My Doctor – *** – Uses his right brain with his left one. Always had faith in me.
f. Members of the *** Church
g. Staff at the Comfort Inn in ***
h. My aunt in SRI LANKA and her daughter in *** . That’s the only family members who cared.
i. *** and *** @ *** of Mental Health – They were the only ones who told me that I did NOT belong there. They said “take your meds, fake it and get the * out” which is EXACTLY what I did. So much for my MANIA diagnosis !! I can fake anything. After all I was the best actor in my high school in 7thgrade !! These high faluting shrinks had no idea who they were dealing with.
6. My 2 Daughters – *** and *** that I have been prevented from seeing for 10 months and might not see for another year !! Their minds have been poisoned by a vindictive ex wife (I don’t know why she is so vindictive)
7. My ex-bosses
- Late ***
- *** (*’s old boss. She is a big shot at *** now)
- ***
- *** – Ran into him the other day at Fry’s
- *** (God knows where he is. God Bless his soul)
8. My *** Colleagues
- *, *, *, *, *
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NOW THE SHIT LIST ...
The *** family that makes close to 2 million $ collectively could not find $4000 to get me out of jail. I was in jail for 4 months for my credit card being denied for $45 and the taxi driver told the police to arrest. Not once did my brother and sister drive 300 miles from *** to see me. WHY ???
They also failed to pay $300 for my bail in Illinois when my wife put me in Jail for sending email to an alias that by mistake contained my 2 daughters. My sister said – I will bail u out if u go to the mental hospital. I told the officers – Tell my sister to take a f-g hike !! *** my lawyer bailed me out
My aunt *** *** who makes 0.5 M $ as an allergist could not rally the ***family to bail me out. But what can I expect from her ? She is the one who left her mentally sick sister to be homeless in *** and deficate in an apt with neighbors screaming on. Did anyone incl myself have the heart to bring my aunt *** to the U.S to get treatment so she could spend the rest of her life in relative piece. I CERTAINLY DID NOT BECAUSE I WAS SHIT SCARED OF MY WIFE RIPPING INTO ME FOR SPENDING THE $$. I WILL ALWAYS REPENT FOR WHAT I DID NOT DO. SOMEDAY WHEN I HAVE SOME $$ I WILL BUILD THE FINEST MENTAL INSTITUTION/HOME WITH HER NAME ON IT
SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD CHANGE MY LAST NAME BECAUSE I AM SO ASHAMED OF IT. WE ARE THE MOST DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY I HAVE SEEN. INSTEAD I PLAN ON SHOWING MY GIRLS THAT SOME CHINWALLAs LIKE THEIR DAD ARE STILL DECENT HUMAN BEINGS WHO CARE.
ON TOP OF THIS I HAVE AN ABUSIVE MOTHER WHO SAYS THE FOLLOWING:
1. Well u should love me more than *** because I love u the most. No, Mom u are SICK. U loved me more than your own husband that’s why u have such a f-d up marriage and now u want me to do the same ? No f-g way..
2. U have adopted Jesus instead of Allah as your god. Yes Mom I did and if u know anything about monotheistic religions u should know it does not matter..
3 folks who worked for me –
1. M – I risked my job and let her go on PAID LOA for 2 months after she had been with MOT only a week because her mother was dying of leukemia. Could not spare $300 to bail me out of Jail.
2. N – Cancelled my customer mtg in Japan , upgraded to first class out of my own pocket, so I could make the wake of his 1 yr old son in Chicago . Did he ever say * – u must be very lonely. Come to my house for Dinner one night Made a big f*g deal when he grudgingly gave me $400.
3. L – Gave me a big lecture about how he does not lend $ to anyone when I needed $300 to get out of Jail.
4. H - An ex boss who said “I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO LOAN U $500. This guy is an exec VP.
I bring this up not to tear them down, but to demonstrate that people who I thought were good at heart have replaced kindness with the all mighty $ in their hearts. Remember the line from XMAS CAROL when Scrooge’s girl friend tells him “Ours was an old promise – A Golden Idol has replaced me in your heart” I believe that the mighty $ has replaced GOD in the hearts of most Americans.
So I ask u my friends for the following. PLEASE PRAY THAT:
1. My faith in God Continues to grow stronger
2. I get to see my ** real soon, even if its just as a friend. I miss her something awful.
3. I get to do what God has set me forth to do.
4. My divorce and all these frivolous cases against me are settled FAIRLY.
5. Get to see my daughters on a regular basis. I miss them terribly…
6. Give an ANTIDOTE to this terrible loneliness
Thanks for reading so far …
I suggest reading just these 3 books that I think have the wisdom that u will ever need;
1. Holy Bible – This is the best self help book there is and its FREE !! I encourage my non Christian friends to read it because it reads like a story book and is quite non denominational.
2. The PRAYERFUL SPIRIT By Dr. James Gills M.D
3. Who moved My Cheese
--FSO
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