Devia

I hate the weekends. I hate the little games of interacting that we've developed. But I'm hostage, temporarily, to my need for his salary and the health insurance it brings us.

I suspect he dislikes me as much as I dislike him. Albeit for different reasons. I hate his self-absorption and his total lack of interest in anything outside his narrow world. He hates that I demand responsibility from him.

He made the mistake years ago of forcing me, by his inaction and total lack of interest, to take over everything. It took a while but I finally came to the point where I didnt need him - except for his salary. Four marriage therapists and fifteen years of therapy later and he hasnt changed. A few years back when I got sick from the stress he lay on me, I realized I didnt like him anymore.

Now, I dont want him anymore.