Me
A major casualty of his medication is our sex life. (BTW, another sign of depression is loss of interest in sex and that did not happen either before the medication.) Loss of libido is a known side effect of most depression medications.
He knows that I have a high sex drive. We had a pretty good love life though the love was missing. All of a sudden, he cant keep up his end. And rather than work it out with me (and at least give me some), he just avoids me at bed-time. Every night, when I come into the bedroom, he's already "sleeping".
Over an 18-month period, we have sex three times. And he refuses to address this beyond trying to tweak his medication. Later, we go 30 months without anything.
I understand his impotence but I dont understand his lack of empathy for my loss and his not wanting to at least give me some satisfaction.
I move out of the room in 2002 and sleep with my younger kids. Ostensibly its so he can sleep better. But its because my sexual drive is such that I become very angry lying there next to his sleeping form at night and he now disgusts me.
I start to secretly ogle every man for suitability as a lover - though I'll never go that route. Its potentially too damaging for my kids.
But, some weeks during my cycle are pure hell.
My tastes are simple!
