Money makes the world go around!

His money sure does buy a lot of nice things and make life easier. But, on the other hand, is it worth being lonely 99% of the time? The kids are here now and they fill my life. But when they are gone, I will need something else. Usually people have their mates but I dont like my mate. He is no company at all. He has no interests other than work. No libido. No joy or love of life except in his work. I will be very lonely with him - I already am but my kids pick up the slack. And school takes tons of time.

And what if he gets a stroke - his medication makes this more likely - and is massively disabled? I dont love him - why would I take care of him? Yet I might feel morally bound and then my chance at a better life would be over.

I was cleaning out our library and found some old journals of mine. These are more than 10 years old. All I'd have to do is change the dates and they would match today. Do I want this to be the rest of my life so I am free to travel and buy nice things?

I dont think so. It will take getting used to but I'm sure I will. Other people travel and have what they need and they dont make a gazillion dollars.